I thought it would be a lonely holiday...but you come to my life…little Nöel…有毛有翼, but he can't fly….strange...

I was awaken by your noise, although sometimes we do share the same language, I still can't understand what you really want from me. Are you hungry? Or you are just singing to me? Or you wanna "bird talk" with me? I'm busy with you all the time now and please…..teach me some of your language so I can improve myself in knowing you better…at least be a good bird sitter.

Arrrggg…..stop the "bird talk" and you are driving me crazy....tell me what you want….in my language!!!










不想去思考的时候,
把大大的耳机带上,
把音量调到最大声,
听着非常吵的音乐,
尽情享受我的世界。


...to buy me a camera that I can't afford. FYI, I have been good for this year! (sort of)
Seitz 6x17 Digital with Seitz D3 digital scan back: 
42,300 Swiss Francs (28,800 Euro)



Shiloh Pepin touched my heart like others when I watched her on TV. She always had a heart and kept a smile on her face and didn't think of herself as unfortunate girl. I was impressed by her fearlessness and her positive attitude to life. Unfortunately she died on October 23, 2009, at Maine Medical Center in Portland, Maine, at the age of ten.

I heard of many unpleasant stories recently, is all about life. We start losing people around us when we grow old day by. I’m feeling sad with these real stories but I know everything happens for a reason.

No matter how tough the life is, we still have to confront it. Just like what Shiloh Pepin did for her life...

Dedicated to my friend just lost her mother last year; for my friend's mother is suffering from illness; for my friend who beloved one is struggling in the hospital, and I hope you could see his smile again.

There is only one thought in my mind now, which is to buy an air ticket and fly back Malaysia and give a big hug to parents and say how much I love them, but I know I can't...I miss you all so much...

I had a very strange dream yesterday. I dreamed of graveyard! My god, I couldn't see myself in the dream, but there was an old man in my dream too.

I check out the dream interpretation dictionary when I reach office this morning.

"To dream that you are at a grave, indicates that you need to delve into your own unconscious in search of an issue that you thought had been put to rest. You need to stand up for yourself for no one else can do it for you. Alternatively, it represents something is about to be completed in your life. You are leaving behind the old and making a new start. The dream may also be a pun on feeling grave or concerned about a serious or sad situation."

Wow.........I'm confused. @.@